A Naked Creep.

How do people do this?  Do they post regularly? Every Tuesday night?  Twice a week?  I don't think I can do that.  Too many of my days are not worth talking about...at least nothing worth sharing with strangers. There are just moments when I suddenly feel like writing.  So, if you look around and I'm not there, don't freak or think I quit.  I just don't feel like writing.  That doesn't mean I don't like it.  It just means my posts will be worth reading.  Who wants wasted time?

As I write this, I am listening to my iTunes and Creep by Radiohead just happens to be playing.  Well, the Jena Irene version.  I can't listen to this without tearing up.  My two kids are sworn to play this at my memorial service.  It's so me and I wish I had written it.  I just want to be worth something.  Isn't that the whole point?  Can't remember one time when I felt like I was "on the right track."  Fucking 48 years old and still trying to figure it out.  Talk about wasted time.

Anyhow, here is what's new.  Back in November I decided I was going to turn my newly found shopping obsession into a business.  I found a company called Agnes & Dora. Comfy, cute and well made clothes for all body shapes.  It's all I wear lately. So I got onboard this past week and my 300 + piece inventory will be here next week.  In three days to be exact.  Over the past few months I have been putting an office together in my home.  New desk, postage scale, clothes steamer, photography corner with a dress form...I am set.  Setting up my social media has been a bitch.  I still have to get my Instagram going.  All I need is the product.  LOL!

Yeah, I'm excited but also scared.  Doing a home business is like the most naked thing you can do.  What I mean by that is this.  It doesn't do anything if you don't.  That's why so many of them fail.  No one likes to look at themselves and see what they are really made of.  Can you set office hours when no one is breathing down your neck?  Or when a good tv show is on and the sofa is calling your ass? No one to answer to but yourself.  Then you find out how creative you can be...creative with the excuses.  But geez, this is literally thousands of dollars invested and I haven't even launched yet.  There is no doubt in my mind that I can do this. I can be REALLY good at this.  The question is, Can I be structured and disciplined?  I don't have a great track record. Yet.  I can do this.  I love the clothes,  I like gabbing about the clothes, I like packaging the clothes.  Yeah, I can do this. I can sell these pretties while I sit barefoot in front of the computer.

I posted a video of myself on my Facebook business page telling WHY I am doing this.  I was just surprised that I did it without crying.  It's naked.